Monday, November 8, 2010

Day 14 Thoughts

Ok...got that one done.....now....plans and thoughts.

Thoughts first........People....like everyone seems to be totally surprised that I'm doing this trip alone. And i guess at the beginning i was surprised i was doing it by myself as well. But now that I'm here...its no big deal....i guess.....I mean i miss everyone, i miss going to my gym, running on my routes, sleeping in my bed, having a shower everyday!.....and stuff like that. But its a good thing....its an experience. The guy that i was talking to last night said some great things.....he said....what your doing is amazing, and you'll look back and go wow.....and i said, ya i know....but right now......it doesn't feel like such a big deal...the experiences and things I've done......doesn't seem that grand. But its because I'm here, right now in it. When i look back it will be even better....more memorable.....if that makes sense......he said....yep...so have fun and enjoy the ride! (it would be easier to enjoy the ride in a 500,000$ motor home!)
So now that the first 2 weeks are done, 6000 or so km behind me......i think the real trip starts.....and to honest.....I'm a bit scared. The first two weeks, there was a loose plan.....i like plans....now its all open, random.....I've got an idea where i wasn't to go...Milwaukee, Chicago, Cleveland, Pittsburgh, DC, Boston, and back up into Canada.....but i find myself hesitant. But ill hit the road and make it work. That's the only way to do it i guess.
So.....having one of those days. I don't feel all that great, prob cus i haven't had a shower or worked out in a week or so...and I've been drinking for the last 2 days......not making excuses or complaining....i made my bed ill sleep in it.
Choices need to be made.....choices are being made....weather they are good or bad....i made the choice to booze it up and have fun...and that's ok....i have to be ok with that. But i feel guilty for doing it. I don't want to go back to 235lb Greg. Never again.
Being on the road....its hard on your body for sure.....once again...no excuses....just talking.....id love to go run every day, and work out and sweat.....but personal hygiene becomes a problem as well as laundry.....i can barley stand myself right now! Its stuff you don't think about at home. I have been looking for gyms....they are harder to find than you might think down here....drop in would prob be 10$...same as a shower at a truck stop....so its a better option, i can work out, have a shower and move on....maybe once i hit some bigger cities ill run into some.....So anyway....when i get the chance i do......but i just have to watch what i eat.....mostly cliff bars, chicken and G2.......and know that when i get home its going to be an up hill battle to get back what i have lost. Ive never really been to comfortable in my skin....even after losing 20 lbs..even knowing I'm a good runner....i still think i look like I'm 230lbs. I have to learn to be ok with me......and this is a battle that will rage on forever.
.........You may wonder why I'm spilling my guts on here and getting into my issues and putting them out there...my answer is......well...i don't know. I said to myself that anything i type can not be deleted...it must be posted........There is a great line from a Sara McLachlan song.....'we are screaming inside, but cant be heard' That's kinda how i feel right now. I guess this is my way of being heard......I want to scream and lash out....but i cant......there is so much uncertainty right now, work, relationships, life paths......will my van make it home (lol).
I love my freedom....i love that i can do what i want when i want to.....and everyone that has a job, family, house, kids, mortgage, car payment, responsibilities......wants to be where i am right now, stinky, hungover, feeling very gross sitting in a Starbucks in Green Bad WI......I'm happy I'm here....but i look fwd to getting my life back on track and moving fwd and having some responsibilities. Stability is nice. Everyone's life is different...and everyone wants different things in life.......everyone needs to be happy with where they are, what they are doing...don't be jealous of anyone....enjoy you and your situation and the ppl around you. At the end of the day....friends,family and your own happiness are all you have....don't take them for granted. I hope that friends and family reading this know how i feel bout all of them.
Ok..........im done for now........time to hit the road to Milwaukee and see whats down there.

Cheers

Weekend update....day 14

Well hey there. Thanks for stopping by!
I wanna start this one off by saying....I'm done polluting my body for a while......it costs too much money and i feel and look like shit.....that might also be due to the fact i haven't had a shower since.........Idaho?....ya, Idaho.
Ok.....so....driving to Green Bay.....you think....big football team = big town.....not so much.....think of Green Bay like.....i don't know.....its a farming community, there is nothing in town, all old buildings, no high rises, lots of churches....very very rural. And then boom......Lambeau Field.....and a mega football team. 100,000 people in town....73,000 at the game......un real experience. The team is owned by the people.....there are 112,000 share holders in the team, its the only team in the NFL like that.
So I'm on the outskirts of town....looking for....something...anything...and there is this shitty yellow sign nailed to a tree that says Lambeau field.....so i bust a right and follow it down this nice treed road with these old houses....i come to an intersection.....and boom....there it is. This huge stadium in the middle of nothingness! Park and start to walk around. Green and Gold every where....brought a smile to my face! Made my wy up to the stadium from the parking lot.....so busy....there was a women's show going on, a wedding, and something to do with girls football. Went tinto the pro shop.....Packer heaven.....so much shit to spend money on! Anything and everything with a G on it was there. So wonder around for a while...go back to the main area and get my self a ticket for a tour of Lambeau....11$....fair deal....had to kill some time...back to the pro shop, got a hat and a few things for a friend then tour time.
Got a Packer history lesson, got to go up yo a luxury box, got to go out the tunnel the Packers do...really a cool experience......now before the tour, i was wondering around and i herd ' those guys are from Canada' so i ask and this lady pointed to this group of dudes....i ask...are yall from Canada?....yep....Winnipeg....I'm from Van! They are there on a batch party and were actually at the Wild game the night before as well! So they do their tour, i do mine...and we happen to bump into each other after the tours.....time to have a beverage....Up to Curlys....its on the second floor in Lambeau.....and sitting and bs'ing slamming down Captain and cokes! Fun dudes! Got outta there before i had to many so i could still move my van to the Kmart parking lot! Moved my van.....and wondered around the party for abit.....then went to meet up with those dudes again for some wings.....went out to a club after that...then they bailed to the titty bar...guess they forgot about me! oh well. So i met some people, a big black dude, a Marine....did some dancing, and stumbled back to the parking lot for some more tailgating and sleep.
Woke up.....went to the gas station, grabbed some beers....let the tail gating begin! Wondered around to some people i had met the night before, and to this one group..they had a old school bus all in green and gold, had a beer there and a chat...they had a mega intense game of beer pong going!....everyone is super nice! "hey you need a beer?....you need a burger?" So cool! Had some pudding shooters, apple pie shooter......strong...watch out! Brats.....people were bbqing up a storm! Open booze everywhere....Cops did not care...as long as everyone was good...no worries. So wondering and drinking, throwing the football around....met some more cool dudes down for the game....ended up hanging with them for the rest of the day. We did a few laps around the parking lot...then i want back to the van to get some more beer....and the people parked in front of me said HEY!....i was like HEY! "you wanna slap the bag?!".......Yes, yes i do. Not knowing what 'slapping the bag is! So out comes a bag of rosey wine....some one holds it up, you take a good pull and after.....with great style of course....you slap the bag! Good times! One of the guys brother in laws.....something...i don't really remember......was from White Rock! Small world eh!
So went and met up with those other guys and we made our way around again.....slapped the bag one more time, and then down to the Lambeau parking lot for some tailgating down there. Mega.....lots of ppl! So much fun....in the parking lot of Lambeau, playing football with random people! There was this one gal and her boyfriend chucking it around.....so i start playing....it ended being like.....what was that game called.....like..."300!!!" and you have to catch the ball....anyways...played for a while....she could play! She was not afraid to mix it up! We were playing this among lots of ppl wondering around! So much fun!
Time to head inside for the game.......Wow......unreal. Ill never forget it. It brought a tear to my eye....amazing. It was awesome, every one in the joint was into it...the atmosphere was electric...if a big play happened, the place exploded! and there were alot of big plays that night!
The game was great...Dallas got stomped! The people who's seat it was that i bought were sitting in the 2 seats beside me....real nice people and they said if i ever want tickets of play off tickets to give them a call! So nice!
So after the game...i hung out for a while and soaked it in a bit more....and made my way back to the Kmart parking lot.....there was not a heck of alot going on....alot of ppl had packed up and gone home....there was a few ppl givin er tho. Met up with the tailgating group of guys again....they were surprised i was still going...i witch i replied.....'im Canadian!.......it how we roll!' Threw the ball around abit more and i went back to the van, fired it up to get some heat in there before bed....saw a lone dude stand by a 500,000$ or so diesel pusher...went and said hi, chatted for a bit.....and called er a night.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Good morning...day 13

Had a good day yesterday.....lots of driving again...glad i did a bunch at night the day before.....its a long, flat, straight drive across SD.....So yesterday was across the last bit of SD and into MN....flat and boring. So i came to a junction in southern MN with a fork going north to St Paul / Minneapolis....and i thought...hey, why not, got some day light left.....so i MADE A DECISION and north bound i went. Driving, driving, driving....and i thought...hey...the Wild play in St. Paul......out comes the Blackberry.....and of course...they are playing the Calgary Flames....ding dong.....find the address for the rink...into the gps...and away we go. Found cheap parking, scalped a ticket ( 1/2 price) and watched a game!
I had to cheer for the Flames....it hurt to do it...but there was no way in hell i was going to cheer for the Wild...Go Canada! There was a bunch of Flames fans there...like alot...i don't know if they were with the team or on a road trip or what....lots of Jets jerseys as well and some team Canada too!
Super nice rink.....like real nice.....very cozy and comfortable. 17,000+ people there....i was sitting behind the real house wives of St. Paul!!! just hilarious!.....ok.....i was spying a bit....One was on her iPhone like the whole night with  fb posts like...'Im at the hockey right noooooooooowwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!' and uploading videos and pics! Ok.....one or two pics is ok......but to constantly be doing it the whole night...come on...people don't care that much! I actually surprised that she could even lift her hand the rock on her finger was so big.......only to be equaled by her equally fake pretentious friend who showed up in the third steve (inside joke)...lol....period. They were like those rich people who go to Canucks games who go cus its a status thing....they don't give 2 shits about hockey....they just go to be seen and to say they went.
It was also funny people watching. There was a couple gals walking down the stairs to their seat....nothing to out of the ordinary there right.....lol....until i actually looked at them....Same hair cut.....like Jennifer Anniston i think......same shitty faded hair colouring and roots showing......unless that a look...i don't know.....but they were like exactly the same! Alot of the gals all looked the same....it was so funny!
It was funny....there was a couple beside me....and the gal said.....'I should pour beer on them and start a fight!!' I laughed and said I'm in!!.....The guy figured i was a Canuck and thought id be all over it! They were super nice actually. Oh..........Best pulled pork sandwich I've ever had......so good!!!
Flames did not play too well....they had a couple good pushes, a good pp and a couple good pk's....but over all sloppy.....Kipper let in a shitty goal that turned out to be the game winner. Calgary was out hit and out played the whole night.The Wild didn't look much better, but better enough to win the game.
So then i bailed and hit the road....drove till about 1230 central time, found a truck stop, not a great one...but a place to stop. Called her a night.
So today, I've got 1.5 hrs to Green Bay where i need to find out where to go for tailgating, i NEED to have a shower lol...do some laundry and if i can find a gym or go fro a run...then tomorrow, football football football! Should be a great day!
So cheers....hope this update put a smile on your face!

Friday, November 5, 2010

Friday...day, 11

So I'm in Sioux Falls SD, right on the border of Minnesota and SD. Got bout 9 hrs a head of me if i want to make GB tonight....and i think i will.
to really much to up date. Yesterday was driving thru WY mostly during the day and SD thru the night. Got to see Mt. Rushmore.....very cool place. Got some good pics of it.  After that was more driving!
So as there is not much to update......how bout some random stuff/rants....

Have you ever seen the people of Walmart email.......well during my travels...I've been it there twice.....that email is no joke! Those people do exist and in large amounts.......and i do mean large!! 1....how do you let yourself get like that! 2....how do you leave the house looking like that!!!...Stretchy pants are not for you!!!
I felt cheaper and stupider just going in there! Everyone has this blank trailer park stare on them! It should be studied!

What else.......that's all i got really.....once i spend some time in GB...then there will be some updates! Tailgating, the game....gonna be epic!

So...i wanna hit the road and see Minnesota...gonna miss a good chunk of WI in the dark....thats the way she goes when its dark...like dark dark @ 6 or 7....what time zone am i in........shit......central?

Cheers everyone

Thursday, November 4, 2010

I wanted to get that one on.....if it got lost...i was not retyping it!
I'm having the chance to do some thinking about life and what i want to do, and how i conduct my life.....the one conclusion i have come to is that I'm very indecisive.....I'm sure there are ppl out there that have known this for a while....but it really hit home for me yesterday. When i went to the hot springs...i was fully prepared to go in and chill...then i started thinking about time restrictions and such...so i got to the river....and I'm like....na...i should just go back...got too much other stuff to do...then I'm like....well I'm here....and back and fourth.....so i crossed and found the springs.....same deal there....I need to make a decision and stick with it. But in the end i got to see what i wanted to see.
I need to find the discipline to be able to do this. I need to become a stronger more.......something....dam it....person....I cant let external problems or issues mess with me. I need to find out how to do this. If anyone has any advice...id love to hear it.
Another thing i need to do is....take life by the horns and make it do what i want. Don't just let it happen....I have let it just kinda happen for a while....made some choices that looked good at the time...but did not work out in the end.....that's different tho.....humm....if i want something...i have to get it...sometimes that works out.....sometimes it doesn't...that's life i suppose.
I still have not figured alot of shit out.....but as the miles go by and the van continues to slowly fall apart....I'm getting closer. There are still alot of questions i need to answer......still alot of hurt inside......and thank god for great....fuckin great friends who answer the phone when your smashed, alone, and need someone to talk to @ midnight after the bar. They offer great advice, don't judge, listen and help.....i would be lost with out ppl like this in my life......I'm lucky to have ppl like that for sure.
Ok.....time to get moving.
Next update from a Starbucks further east lol
Cheers everyone

Big update....Thursday 1330 from Gillette WY

Ok.......fb is updated....photos and such....I've been sitting in sbucks for well over an hour....time to update the blog for the last couple days.
So where did i leave off.....i was sitting in the Silver dollar in Jackson.....ppl kept stealing all my chairs...finally when this gal stole my last one she said...if you wanna sit with us you can...we took all your chairs anyway! So i said sure...nice ppl....there was Mike, Mcayla, Bonnie, Kelsey, and.....Justin....lol...the only way i could remember their names was to associate them with something else! so Justin was Justin Morneau...Baseball player....Bonnie....was from a 'Bonnie situation' from Pulp Fiction, Mcayla was from Transformers...and it seemed to work! Had a great night @ the silver Dollar, danced a bit, chatted and then moved on to the Tavern....but Justin and i went to move my van to the over night parking lot down the street abit....so got back to the tavern shot the shit abit....place was kinda dead....Justin lost his phone...back to the van..lol....just gunned.....back to the tavern....called her a night soon after. Stumbled back to the van...woke up @ 8 still smashed....slept for another hour and was ok....hungover but ok! Found a place to have some breaky and made my way into the parks.
If you get the chance to go through Teton and Yellowstone....do it. Bucket list it. I hammered thru it due to time restraints (gatta get to Green Bay) You could easily spend....weeks in there...so much to see...wild life, diverse terrain, geological stuff....just a super cool place. In the south there was an inversion...so low cloud but it opened up to the north so that was good, saw some elk, buffalo, birds....all sorts of stuff. Drove around to see some key spots, Old Faithful, the falls, and some hidden hot springs. Got to see all that i wanted to as time allowed.....I will make a trip back here in the future.....and do it properly. Some un real scenery!
Started the drive toward the east entrance.....and came around a corner....right into a heard of Buffalo! on go the brakes....everything in the van shifts rapidly lol.....So now I'm idling along with this roaming heard of Buffalo....they don't care that I'm there....not at all!....so i took some blurry pics and some video of it....very cool....they finally found where they wanted to cross and they did......there was prob 50 or so on the road and another 50 off the road. After that excitement....continued east to Cody WY, filled up and east bound and down....thru a 9100 ft pass......kinda wishing i did it in the day and not at night....even at night i could tell there was some cool shit to see...so i stopped at the summit and shut the van down and just looked at the stars for a while........sure felt small and insignificant at that point. Continued down alittle further and parked for the night.
Got up to the sun shining, the valley floor in the distance and some amazing rock formations....its cool...the state has put up signs pointing @ the rocks...telling you the approx age and geological period they are from...some dated back 300 million years....cool stuff....WY has some very cool stuff in it!
So here i sit in Gillette WY....next stop Rushmore and then a big pile of driving over the next 2 days....bout 2000km to Green Bay and a football game that i kinda wanna see!

Ok...updates

This is from 2 days ago...and after this I'll continue for yesterday and today So far!

Update

So I'm in Jackson Hole WY....epic climb to get over Teton pass...8100+ feet...deli had to make a stop to cool down near the top...great view of Jackson hole from the summit......wow this is good beer.....I'm sitting at a place called the silver dollar...I have a pint of Mighty Bison brow ale and some elk sliders on the way...live music starting up in 20 min or so. Anyways...ya, nice drive, clear skies and snow on the ground.
Had my first truck stop shower today....not as bad as you might think! It was 10$....that sounds like alot...but after 3 or 4 days with no shower and a run....well worth the cash! So you pay, then you get a code...and go into a locked bathroom...very clean, they had towels...very nice. Had a good shower and a shave and you walk outta there feeling like a million bucks ready to dominate the road ahead!
Got the deli's oil changed today in Twin Falls, saw some great scenery and blazed to Jackson.
I think the sat radio is conspiring against me.....last night on a long, dark, lonely stretch of road with nothing but stars and the odd truck going the opposite direction to life the way....3 songs...not all in a row but within 15 mom of each other came on....dam....of so good...it seems when I'm busy I'm ok...but when I have time to think...and of course if a song comes on...it's all down hill. I'm not sure how to work past this problem.....will it ever go away? or is it just something you learn to deal with? I think I have to learn to deal with it and move on...what else can I do right...
It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all....I'm not sure how to follow that up...I don't know of anyone can. Man up, accept it and move on.
Anyways....the band just started...kinda blue grass, county, some old dude with suspenders and some sweet moves is 2 stepping with some gal...awesome! Beer #2 is almost down the hatch....gonna be a good night...just need to find some ppl to chat with!